his amor | 18

Ellie Rose ~

"Mason.. you'll be alright" I whispered kissing his temple while running my hands through his hair. He hadn't woke up yet. All he's doing is murmuring so that 'I don't leave him' in his sleep. He was all sweating. I kept wiping his sweat but it kept coming back again. He isn't stopping sweating and it's making me worried even more.

"Ellie.. don't leave me.. " he murmured, his eyebrows coming together like he's in pain. I bite down on my lip suppressing my sobbing. I can't see him like this.

"I-I'm with you.. Mason" I whispered taking his hand in mine.

"I need you, stay with me.. stay with me" he murmured intertwining our fingers.

"I'm here.. I'm with you" I whispered kissing his temple.

"I'll go wherever you'll go bella, just stay by my side" he spoke, his chest rising up and down. I shut my eyes closed letting tears run down my cheeks. I've already called the girls and others, they're on their way.

"Ellie!" Amara called out from behind. I turned around to see her standing in the doorway with tears in her eyes, she's almost out of breathe as she run up to Mason.

"Mason, I'm here. I'm Amara. Open your eyes brother" Amara spoke running her hands through his hair. Tears running down her cheeks.

"He'll be okay, Amara" I said glancing down at him.

"Yeah he needs to be okay or I'm going to beat his ass down" She whispered pulling me for a hug. I shut my eyes closed hugging her back and nodded my head. He'll be okay. He's going to be okay and he have to be okay for us.

For me.

"Ellie.. I love you.. don't leave me" he murmured shaking his head. I took a deep breathe wiping the tears before leaning my forehead against his. I closed my eyes crying silently.

"He needs you more than anyone right now Ellie, He's having panic attacks because he's so afraid to lose you" Amara spoke wiping her tears. "He's afraid you'll leave him that's why he's having the panic attacks"

I bite down on my lip sobbing quietly.

"Forgive him Ellie, he loves you like crazy and he needs you more than anything and anyone in this world" She whispered rubbing my back smoothly.

I can't, I can't forgive him. At least not so soon.

"I can't, Amara" I whispered wiping the tears and taking a deep breathe. "He hurt me, broke me and I don't know if he's really being honest with me. I can't trust him yet neither I can't forgive him yet" I answered looking down causing her to take a deep breathe.

"I know.. take your time" she sadly smiled at me before glancing at sleeping Mason.

"Just remember, He loves you more than anything and anyone Ellie, he'll break down again if you leave him" Amara said. I stayed silent. I don't know what to do. I just know I can't forgive, not yet.

"I be right back" I mumbled getting out from the bed. Amara nodded her head when I gently began to wiping his sweats with the towel moving down to his neck. I don't know how to stop him from sweating. After wiping the sweats I pulled the blanket over his body.

"I'm here with him" Amara gave me a small smile. I sighed and nodded my head.

"You're going to be okay.. " I placed a kiss on his cheek before walking out from my bedroom. As soon as I walked downstairs to the kitchen. I collapsed on the floor crying. I don't know what to do. I want to leave him but it's so damn hard, I want to forget him but I can't no matter how hard I tried, I want to hate him but I can't, And how can I leave him when he's having this panic attacks and he's not okay? I just don't know what to do anymore.

"Cara mia, are you okay?"

I quickly wiped my tears and looked up to see Vincenzo on the doorway. Sad and worries spread all over his face. I shook my head covering my face with my hands, crying. He ran up to me pulling me for a hug.

"Shh it's okay.. I heard everything you've gone through" He whispered running his hands through my hair trying to calm me down. "And Mason will be alright, he's strong"

I nodded my head wrapping my hands around his waist.

"I don't know what to do anymore vince.. I can't take the pain anymore" I whispered.

"It's okay, let it all flooded out from inside you cara mia" he spoke kissing the top of my head. I needed this. I needed someone at this moment to hold me like this, I wished my mom was here with me right now. I really needs her. After few minutes of crying in his arms, I finally calm down.

"Are you okay now?" He asked cupping my face. I let out a sighed nodding my head.

"Thank you for being with me Vince, I really needed someone at this moment" I whispered wiping the tears when he gave me a sad smile.

"I'm with you.. always and I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you were broken and upset. If I was there at that time than I would've fucking killed him" he muttered. "Or I would've definitely beat his ass down with the bamboo" he spoke and I couldn't helped but smiled at his words.

"Don't you guys love ass?" I narrowed my eyes at him smiling and he shook his head chuckling.

"You're really unbelievable Ellie Rose"

~

We walked back to upstairs my bedroom to see Amara talking with Mason while wiping his sweats. I was relieved seeing him alright now and a small smile made it's way onto my face when his eyes met mine. But His jaw clenched as he glanced at Vincenzo.

"Bro calm down. It's nothing you're thinking" Vincenzo raised his hands up in surrender mode causing Mason to rolled his eyes. I didn't made any move to go to him.

"Bella.. " he whispered, A small smile tugged on his lips.

"I knew you'll be okay Mason" I spoke walking up. He smiled taking my hand before placing a kiss on it's back making me blushed.

I'm mad with him but still he managed to make me blushed.

"He has stopped sweating and he's alright now" Amara smiled at me before glancing at Mason who's too busy to stared at me. I smiled at Amara nodding my head than looked back down at him.

"You're an angel, baby" he whispered as I run my hands through his wet hair from sweating. I didn't respond but I guess my blush was enough to give him the answer. "And When you're blushing you get more beautiful" he smiled and I felt as my cheeks turning bright pink causing Amara and Vincenzo to cleared their throat.

"If you want we can leave you two alone, right Vince?" She smirked glancing at Vincenzo than at us.

"Yeah sure" Vincenzo shrugged simply. His jaw clenched and he was looking mad I don't know why.

"Are you still mad with me?" Mason asked. I stayed silent.

Before Mason could speak, A voice interrupted him. We looked up to see Sophie Halsey standing, her eyes widened as she glanced at Mason. I didn't called this bitch.

"Mason.. are you okay?" Sophie ran up to him. bitch.

"I'm okay" he answered without looking at her and intertwining our fingers. Sophie smiled kissing his cheek and I won't lie if I didn't feel like to kill her.

"What are you doing here Sophie?" Mason asked raising an eyebrow at her causing her to scoffed.

"You can't be serious Mason, Maybe we're not together anymore and you might not care or love me anymore but I do and I'll always do" Sophie spoke and I looked away from them.

Bitch.

"Than where was your love and care when you were cheating on him?" Vincenzo asked crossing his arms over his chest.

"I was stupid Vincenzo and you can't blame me. Mason couldn't give me enough time and-"

'And you cheated on him, right? Not only once but every night" Amara scoffed. Sophie took a deep breathe before taking Mason's hand in her.

"I really love you Mason.. more than anyone and no matter how many times you pushed me away, I'll come back to you and I know, you love me too" Sophie said kissing his hand causing Mason to rolled his eyes.

"You're wrong Sophie, I love Ellie.. only Ellie and no fucking one can replace her" Mason answered looking at me when I looked down playing with his fingers causing her to scoffed.

"Now get lost bitch" Amara spat crossing her arms over her chest.

"One day you'll come back to me Mason.. I promise you" she grits before glancing at me. Tears threatening to come out from her eyes as she look dead into my eyes.

"And you'll regret everything too, Ellie Rose" that's all she spat before storming out from my room. I'm already regretting.

"I really hate that bitch so much, I felt like my blood began to boiling whenever I see her" Amara scoffed causing Vincenzo to chuckled. "She's a bitch and that's why Everyone hates her"

They laughed before walking out from the room.

"Bella, look at me, It hurts when you avert your gaze from me" He spoke softly. "I know I really fucked up but please let me fixed it again"

I stayed silent. He can't expect me to forgive him so easily not after everything he did to me.

"There's nothing to fixed anymore Mason" I replied finally looking at him into his beautiful blue eyes that flashing with guilty and pain. "It'll be better if we get back on our own path"

"Bella at least give-"

"You can't expect me to give you chance so easily after everything you did to me, right? You literally broke my heart, made me feel so pathetic. The pain and the hurt- god. There wasn't a moment when I didn't cry Mason. Every night I cried wishing I could die because I couldn't take the pain anymore" I raised my voice, tears threatening to come out.

"I'm fucking hurt Mason and I'm afraid If you hurt me again than I won't be able to live anymore. My heart is broken and no one can healed that, no one.." I said, my voice cracking and broken. His eyes filled with tears as he clenched his jaw trying hard not to broke into tears in front of me.

"Not even you.. " I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I know, I'd hurt you so fucking much baby but please.. don't avert your gaze from me, don't hate me.." he whispered shaking his head. Tears threatening to come out from his eyes.

"I know very well what happened that night and how fucking rude and asshole I was with you but I regret that, I fucking regret that baby" he spoke when I looked away from him wiping the tears but it keeps coming back.

"I'm in madly love with you and I'll always be no matter what. it won't changed bella"

I shut my eyes closed taking a deep breathe.

"This was it Mason.. you broke me so please let me be. I want to move to America to focus on my career and it'll be better for both of us" I answered quietly before turning around to leave but he grabbed my arm.

"Fine, I'm coming with you than" he said, his voice firm.

"You're not.. " I sternly replied looking into his eyes.

"There's no way I'm letting you go this time, I've messed up everything once but not again. I'll win you back bella" he spoke.

"And I promise you that" he whispered not taking his eyes off mine. I slowly jerked my arm from his grip ignoring him and grabbed the pillow from beside him.

"Aren't you're gonna sleep here?" He asked, his eyebrows coming together in confusion.

He can't take anything serious? I'm mad with him and he expect me to sleep with him in one bed? Impossible.

"No, I'll take the couch" I answered without looking at him causing him to rolled his eyes.

"No, I'm taking the couch and you sleep on the bed" he said trying to get up from the bed but I gently laid him back down.

"You're sick, stay here. I'll take the couch" I murmured pulling the blanket over his body but he gripped my hand.

"I'm taking the couch and that's final" he said firmly causing me to rolled my eyes.

"No"

"Yes"

"No Mason Williams"

"I said yes, My love"

My heart fluttered as soon as those words left his lips.

"Why are you so stubborn?" I asked, my eyebrows coming together causing him to rolled his eyes.

"I'm not stubborn" He hissed. I pressed my lips together crossing my arms over my chest in annoyed. We kept staring at each other for some moment and a smile tugged on his lips.

"You're so cute when you're mad" he whispered and I looked away from him taking a deep breathe. I can't fall for his sweet words.

"Goodnight Mason Williams" I said walking towards couch. I done my hair in a messy bun and laid down on the couch. I felt his gaze on me all the time causing my body to shivered down under his intense gaze.

This man has that affect on me.

"Goodnight My love"

I glanced up at him to see his eyes closed and a smile playing on his lips. I took a deep breathe before hugging the pillow. If he really want me back than he gotta have to try hard.

I'm not going to forgive him so easily..

*****

Hey Lovelies 👋

I know some of you are really disappointed with the chapter 25 coz she forgive him so easily but no, she didn't.

He was almost dying from the panics and she can't see her man like that, right? So she'd to consoled him.

Anyways THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING ❤❤

Here's the second update!

LOVE Ya'all

^^

See Ya'all in the next Chapter

Xoxox

Ellie Rose ~

"Mason.. you'll be alright" I whispered kissing his temple while running my hands through his hair. He hadn't woke up yet. All he's doing is murmuring so that 'I don't leave him' in his sleep. He was all sweating. I kept wiping his sweat but it kept coming back again. He isn't stopping sweating and it's making me worried even more.

"Ellie.. don't leave me.. " he murmured, his eyebrows coming together like he's in pain. I bite down on my lip suppressing my sobbing. I can't see him like this.

"I-I'm with you.. Mason" I whispered taking his hand in mine.

"I need you, stay with me.. stay with me" he murmured intertwining our fingers.

"I'm here.. I'm with you" I whispered kissing his temple.

"I'll go wherever you'll go bella, just stay by my side" he spoke, his chest rising up and down. I shut my eyes closed letting tears run down my cheeks. I've already called the girls and others, they're on their way.

"Ellie!" Amara called out from behind. I turned around to see her standing in the doorway with tears in her eyes, she's almost out of breathe as she run up to Mason.

"Mason, I'm here. I'm Amara. Open your eyes brother" Amara spoke running her hands through his hair. Tears running down her cheeks.

"He'll be okay, Amara" I said glancing down at him.

"Yeah he needs to be okay or I'm going to beat his ass down" She whispered pulling me for a hug. I shut my eyes closed hugging her back and nodded my head. He'll be okay. He's going to be okay and he have to be okay for us.

For me.

"Ellie.. I love you.. don't leave me" he murmured shaking his head. I took a deep breathe wiping the tears before leaning my forehead against his. I closed my eyes crying silently.

"He needs you more than anyone right now Ellie, He's having panic attacks because he's so afraid to lose you" Amara spoke wiping her tears. "He's afraid you'll leave him that's why he's having the panic attacks"

I bite down on my lip sobbing quietly.

"Forgive him Ellie, he loves you like crazy and he needs you more than anything and anyone in this world" She whispered rubbing my back smoothly.

I can't, I can't forgive him. At least not so soon.

"I can't, Amara" I whispered wiping the tears and taking a deep breathe. "He hurt me, broke me and I don't know if he's really being honest with me. I can't trust him yet neither I can't forgive him yet" I answered looking down causing her to take a deep breathe.

"I know.. take your time" she sadly smiled at me before glancing at sleeping Mason.

"Just remember, He loves you more than anything and anyone Ellie, he'll break down again if you leave him" Amara said. I stayed silent. I don't know what to do. I just know I can't forgive, not yet.

"I be right back" I mumbled getting out from the bed. Amara nodded her head when I gently began to wiping his sweats with the towel moving down to his neck. I don't know how to stop him from sweating. After wiping the sweats I pulled the blanket over his body.

"I'm here with him" Amara gave me a small smile. I sighed and nodded my head.

"You're going to be okay.. " I placed a kiss on his cheek before walking out from my bedroom. As soon as I walked downstairs to the kitchen. I collapsed on the floor crying. I don't know what to do. I want to leave him but it's so damn hard, I want to forget him but I can't no matter how hard I tried, I want to hate him but I can't, And how can I leave him when he's having this panic attacks and he's not okay? I just don't know what to do anymore.

"Cara mia, are you okay?"

I quickly wiped my tears and looked up to see Vincenzo on the doorway. Sad and worries spread all over his face. I shook my head covering my face with my hands, crying. He ran up to me pulling me for a hug.

"Shh it's okay.. I heard everything you've gone through" He whispered running his hands through my hair trying to calm me down. "And Mason will be alright, he's strong"

I nodded my head wrapping my hands around his waist.

"I don't know what to do anymore vince.. I can't take the pain anymore" I whispered.

"It's okay, let it all flooded out from inside you cara mia" he spoke kissing the top of my head. I needed this. I needed someone at this moment to hold me like this, I wished my mom was here with me right now. I really needs her. After few minutes of crying in his arms, I finally calm down.

"Are you okay now?" He asked cupping my face. I let out a sighed nodding my head.

"Thank you for being with me Vince, I really needed someone at this moment" I whispered wiping the tears when he gave me a sad smile.

"I'm with you.. always and I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you were broken and upset. If I was there at that time than I would've fucking killed him" he muttered. "Or I would've definitely beat his ass down with the bamboo" he spoke and I couldn't helped but smiled at his words.

"Don't you guys love ass?" I narrowed my eyes at him smiling and he shook his head chuckling.

"You're really unbelievable Ellie Rose"

~

We walked back to upstairs my bedroom to see Amara talking with Mason while wiping his sweats. I was relieved seeing him alright now and a small smile made it's way onto my face when his eyes met mine. But His jaw clenched as he glanced at Vincenzo.

"Bro calm down. It's nothing you're thinking" Vincenzo raised his hands up in surrender mode causing Mason to rolled his eyes. I didn't made any move to go to him.

"Bella.. " he whispered, A small smile tugged on his lips.

"I knew you'll be okay Mason" I spoke walking up. He smiled taking my hand before placing a kiss on it's back making me blushed.

I'm mad with him but still he managed to make me blushed.

"He has stopped sweating and he's alright now" Amara smiled at me before glancing at Mason who's too busy to stared at me. I smiled at Amara nodding my head than looked back down at him.

"You're an angel, baby" he whispered as I run my hands through his wet hair from sweating. I didn't respond but I guess my blush was enough to give him the answer. "And When you're blushing you get more beautiful" he smiled and I felt as my cheeks turning bright pink causing Amara and Vincenzo to cleared their throat.

"If you want we can leave you two alone, right Vince?" She smirked glancing at Vincenzo than at us.

"Yeah sure" Vincenzo shrugged simply. His jaw clenched and he was looking mad I don't know why.

"Are you still mad with me?" Mason asked. I stayed silent.

Before Mason could speak, A voice interrupted him. We looked up to see Sophie Halsey standing, her eyes widened as she glanced at Mason. I didn't called this bitch.

"Mason.. are you okay?" Sophie ran up to him. bitch.

"I'm okay" he answered without looking at her and intertwining our fingers. Sophie smiled kissing his cheek and I won't lie if I didn't feel like to kill her.

"What are you doing here Sophie?" Mason asked raising an eyebrow at her causing her to scoffed.

"You can't be serious Mason, Maybe we're not together anymore and you might not care or love me anymore but I do and I'll always do" Sophie spoke and I looked away from them.

Bitch.

"Than where was your love and care when you were cheating on him?" Vincenzo asked crossing his arms over his chest.

"I was stupid Vincenzo and you can't blame me. Mason couldn't give me enough time and-"

'And you cheated on him, right? Not only once but every night" Amara scoffed. Sophie took a deep breathe before taking Mason's hand in her.

"I really love you Mason.. more than anyone and no matter how many times you pushed me away, I'll come back to you and I know, you love me too" Sophie said kissing his hand causing Mason to rolled his eyes.

"You're wrong Sophie, I love Ellie.. only Ellie and no fucking one can replace her" Mason answered looking at me when I looked down playing with his fingers causing her to scoffed.

"Now get lost bitch" Amara spat crossing her arms over her chest.

"One day you'll come back to me Mason.. I promise you" she grits before glancing at me. Tears threatening to come out from her eyes as she look dead into my eyes.

"And you'll regret everything too, Ellie Rose" that's all she spat before storming out from my room. I'm already regretting.

"I really hate that bitch so much, I felt like my blood began to boiling whenever I see her" Amara scoffed causing Vincenzo to chuckled. "She's a bitch and that's why Everyone hates her"

They laughed before walking out from the room.

"Bella, look at me, It hurts when you avert your gaze from me" He spoke softly. "I know I really fucked up but please let me fixed it again"

I stayed silent. He can't expect me to forgive him so easily not after everything he did to me.

"There's nothing to fixed anymore Mason" I replied finally looking at him into his beautiful blue eyes that flashing with guilty and pain. "It'll be better if we get back on our own path"

"Bella at least give-"

"You can't expect me to give you chance so easily after everything you did to me, right? You literally broke my heart, made me feel so pathetic. The pain and the hurt- god. There wasn't a moment when I didn't cry Mason. Every night I cried wishing I could die because I couldn't take the pain anymore" I raised my voice, tears threatening to come out.

"I'm fucking hurt Mason and I'm afraid If you hurt me again than I won't be able to live anymore. My heart is broken and no one can healed that, no one.." I said, my voice cracking and broken. His eyes filled with tears as he clenched his jaw trying hard not to broke into tears in front of me.

"Not even you.. " I whispered as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"I know, I'd hurt you so fucking much baby but please.. don't avert your gaze from me, don't hate me.." he whispered shaking his head. Tears threatening to come out from his eyes.

"I know very well what happened that night and how fucking rude and asshole I was with you but I regret that, I fucking regret that baby" he spoke when I looked away from him wiping the tears but it keeps coming back.

"I'm in madly love with you and I'll always be no matter what. it won't changed bella"

I shut my eyes closed taking a deep breathe.

"This was it Mason.. you broke me so please let me be. I want to move to America to focus on my career and it'll be better for both of us" I answered quietly before turning around to leave but he grabbed my arm.

"Fine, I'm coming with you than" he said, his voice firm.

"You're not.. " I sternly replied looking into his eyes.

"There's no way I'm letting you go this time, I've messed up everything once but not again. I'll win you back bella" he spoke.

"And I promise you that" he whispered not taking his eyes off mine. I slowly jerked my arm from his grip ignoring him and grabbed the pillow from beside him.

"Aren't you're gonna sleep here?" He asked, his eyebrows coming together in confusion.

He can't take anything serious? I'm mad with him and he expect me to sleep with him in one bed? Impossible.

"No, I'll take the couch" I answered without looking at him causing him to rolled his eyes.

"No, I'm taking the couch and you sleep on the bed" he said trying to get up from the bed but I gently laid him back down.

"You're sick, stay here. I'll take the couch" I murmured pulling the blanket over his body but he gripped my hand.

"I'm taking the couch and that's final" he said firmly causing me to rolled my eyes.

"No"

"Yes"

"No Mason Williams"

"I said yes, My love"

My heart fluttered as soon as those words left his lips.

"Why are you so stubborn?" I asked, my eyebrows coming together causing him to rolled his eyes.

"I'm not stubborn" He hissed. I pressed my lips together crossing my arms over my chest in annoyed. We kept staring at each other for some moment and a smile tugged on his lips.

"You're so cute when you're mad" he whispered and I looked away from him taking a deep breathe. I can't fall for his sweet words.

"Goodnight Mason Williams" I said walking towards couch. I done my hair in a messy bun and laid down on the couch. I felt his gaze on me all the time causing my body to shivered down under his intense gaze.

This man has that affect on me.

"Goodnight My love"

I glanced up at him to see his eyes closed and a smile playing on his lips. I took a deep breathe before hugging the pillow. If he really want me back than he gotta have to try hard.

I'm not going to forgive him so easily..

*****

Hey Lovelies 👋

I know some of you are really disappointed with the chapter 25 coz she forgive him so easily but no, she didn't.

He was almost dying from the panics and she can't see her man like that, right? So she'd to consoled him.

Anyways THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING ❤❤

Here's the second update!

LOVE Ya'all

^^

See Ya'all in the next Chapter

Xoxox